Retro Fever

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Going the distance!!

I have often dreamed

Of a far off place

Where a hero's welcome
Would be waiting for me

Where the crowds will cheer

When they see my face

And a voice keeps saying

This is where I'm meant to be

I'll be there someday

I can go the distance

I will find my way

If I can be strong

I know ev'ry mile

Will be worth my while

When I go the distance

I'll be right where I belong

Down an unknown road

To embrace my fate

Though the road may wander

It will lead me to you

And a thousand years

Would be worth the wait

It may take a lifetime

But somehow I'll see it through

And I won't look back

I can go the distanceAnd

I'll stay on track

No I won't accept defeat

It's an uphill slope

But I won't lose hope

Till I go the distance

And my journey is complete

But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part

For a hero's strength is measured by his heart

Like a shooting starI can go the distance

I will search the worldI will face its harms

I don't care how far

I can go the distance

Till I find my hero's welcome

Waiting in your arms...

I will search the world

I will face its harms

TillI find my hero's welcome

Waiting in your arms...

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FEVER.11:26 PM

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Dance With My Father Again

Back when I was a child
Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
And dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around till I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved
If I could get another chance
Another walk, another dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
How I’d love, love, love to dance with my father again
Ooh, ooh
When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way I would run from her to him
He’d make me laugh just to comfort me, yeah, yeah
Then finally make me do just what my mama said
Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he Would be gone from me
If I could steal one final glance
One final step, one final dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
‘Cause I’d love, love, love to dance with my father again
Sometimes I’d listen outside her door
And I’d hear her, mama cryin’ for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me
I know I’m prayin’ for much too much
But could You send back the only man she loved I know
You don’t do it usually
But Lord, she’s dyin’ to dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep
And this is all I ever dream...

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FEVER.11:20 PM

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Monday, May 28, 2007

THANK YOU MUMMY!!

Isn't it a blessing to have a mum ard?!?! When i fell sick last week, not caring whether i will spread the germs to her, she took care of me...I experienced a great mother love there! I dun mind falling sick again so that she can take care of me! Is really to a certain point that when we are down and weak, that we notice how much our parents love us! Sometimes in life, we go too fast not realising the love others have for us...I learnt to slow down a little bit, to appreciate my family...God is a God of restoration!! I dun really have a great family love back den in my early years...In my school years, fight is like a CCA for me...like a normal activity i always participate in! So sometimes i will have cuts & bruises when i go home...Instead of caring but my family laughed at me, mocked at me...I will always feel they dun care bout me at all! I really hv no idea how God does things...I experience lots of love from my family & relatives...Back to my mum, she just told me a thing that makes me so touched...She actually took leave tml just to go out with me...She all of a sudden wanna bless me with a cellphone...Very sudden....In my mind im telling myself, dats not her! is not her at all! Well, i sure know is God's doing! thank You! Me & my mum going Expo foodfair!! im gonna have a great time with her!!

Retro;
FEVER.9:48 AM

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12 days to Army!

12 days to Army...hey Army doesnt really seem dat bad...In fact im gonna celebrate by singing 12 days to Army...Here we go!! SING ALONG!!! U KNOW THE WORDS!!!

On the first day to Army,

my true love sent to me

A $50,000 was given to me.

On the second day to Army,

my true love sent to me

Two Leaders,

A $50,000 was given to me.

On the third day to Army,

my true love sent to me

Three French loaf,

Two Leaders,

A $50,000 was given to me.

On the fourth day to Army,

my true love sent to me

Four mocking birds,

Three French loaf,

Two Leaders,

A $50,000 was given to me.

On the fifth day to Army,

my true love sent to me

Five Onion rings,

Four mocking birds,

Three French loaf,

Two Leaders,

A $50,000 was given to me.

On the sixth day to Army,

my true love sent to me

Six punches to the devil,

Five Onion rings,

Four mocking birds,

Three French loaf,

Two Leaders,

A $50,000 was given to me.

On the seventh day to Army,

my true love sent to me

Seven demons casted out,

Six punches to the devil,

Five Onion rings,

Four mocking birds,

Three French loaf,

Two Leaders,

A $50,000 was given to me.

On the eighth day to Army,

my true love sent to me

Eight People Healed,

Seven demons casted out,

Six punches to the devil,

Five Onion rings,

Four mocking birds,

Three French loaf,

Two Leaders,

A $50,000 was given to me.

On the ninth day to Army,

my true love sent to me

Nine elbow drops

Eight People Healed,

Seven demons casted out,

Six punches to the devil,

Five Onion rings,

Four mocking birds,

Three French loaf,

Two Leaders,

A $50,000 was given to me.

On the tenth day to Army,

my true love sent to me

Ten Thousands added,

Nine elbow drops,

Eight People Healed,

Seven demons casted out,

Six punches to the devil,

Five Onion rings,

Four mocking birds,

Three French loaf,

Two Leaders,

A $50,000 was given to me.

On the eleventh day to Army,

my true love sent to me

Eleven days fasting,

Ten Thousands added,

Nine elbow drops,

Eight People Healed,

Seven demons casted out,

Six punches to the devil,

Five Onion rings,

Four mocking birds,

Three French loaf,

Two Leaders,

A $50,000 was given to me.

On the twelfth day to Army,

my true love sent to me

Twelve Disciples singing,

Eleven days fasting,

Ten Thousands added,

Nine elbow drops,

Eight People Healed,

Seven demons casted out,

Six punches to the devil,

Five Onion rings,

Four mocking birds,

Three French loaf,

Two Leaders,

A $50,000 was given to me!!

Retro;
FEVER.8:23 AM

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Thursday, May 24, 2007

Soaring With Eagles

I once asked God for wings to fly
and didn't ask for more
I could barely see over blades of grass,
much less mount up and soar
But God upon hearing my small weak cry
took it into His power and might
I received nothing less than an eagle's wings
upon which I could take flight
And now the rest is up to me,
there is no height I cannot attain
So I'm up here looking down at mountaintops,
soaring with eagles in God's glorious reign

Retro;
FEVER.9:20 PM

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Loser Takes AllTo lose yourself in loving others
is seen by the world as a defeat
But the eyes of God see differently
and the victory's oh! so sweet
And risking all, against the odds,
may seem foolhardy to the rest
But God views things quite differently
when He knows you've done your best
So living by a set of values
may just leave you feeling overspent
And convictions, though quite honorable,
do not help to pay the rent
But God sees things quite differently
and when we hear His final call
The kingdom doors will open wide
for the ones who gave their all

Retro;
FEVER.9:17 PM

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GOD'S GARDEN

God's Garden is not really a place where flowers grow. It is a place where people grow. It is where all of us are right now. We are always in this garden from the time we are born until the time we die. Hopefully in life we will grow in the right direction and that direction is toward God. We are all here for the same reason. We are on our way home to God. Sometimes on this trip home we will grow slowly like a flower. Other times we will have to sprout and grow wings like a bird in order to fly there. Either way it will be a rough journey and growing is usually a pretty painful process. Our lives here are not about what we are going to get. Our lives here are about what we are going to give. And not about the love we received but the love that we gave. Many did not understand the ambitious violet (this is one of the poems below). They thought she should be happy with who she was and criticized her. But she was the most magnificent and glorious flower in the whole garden. She was not concerned with who she was and didn't insist on being herself. Nor did she succumb to the pressures of becoming who others wanted her to be. She gave up her life of living safely in the shade with all the other violets and chose to become the tallest flower in the garden so that she could reach closer to God. Please scroll along safely through the garden and be careful not to step on any of the other flowers. And by all means please feed the birds. They are growing wings and need strength for the flight ahead.

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FEVER.9:16 PM

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Ambitious Violet

There once was a violet
who was so full of woes
That she cried, and she cried,
for she longed to be a rose
And Mother Nature upon seeing the little flower so glumTurned her into a rose
before the next morn would come
The flower awoke
to feel the warmth of sunlight
And continued to grow
through each day and each night
Becoming taller, and taller,
she grew right past a cloud
And the violet, now a rose,
made Mother Nature proud
For some flowers are not happy
just growing next to the earths sod
They want to reach right up into heaven
and live close to God

Retro;
FEVER.9:08 PM

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~~Daddy's Empty Chair~~

A man's daughter had asked the local minister to come

and pray with her father.

When the minister arrived, he found the man lying in bed

with his head propped up on two pillows.

An empty chair sat beside his bed.

The minister assumed that the old fellow had been informed of his visit.

"I guess you were expecting me, he said.

'No, who are you?" said the father.

The minister told him his name and then remarked,

"I saw the empty chair and I figured you knew I was going to show up,

"Oh yeah, the chair," said the bedridden man. "Would you mind closing the door?"

Puzzled, the minister shut the door.

"I have never told anyone this, not even my daughter," said the man. "

But all of my life I have never known how to pray.

At church I used to hear the pastor talk about prayer, But it went right over my head."

I abandoned any attempt at prayer," the old man continued,

"until one day four years ago,

my best friend said to me,

"Johnny, prayer is just a simple matter of having a conversation with Jesus. Here is what I suggest."

"Sit down in a chair; place an empty chair in front of you, and in faith see Jesus on the chair.

It's not spooky because he promised, 'I will be with you always'.

"Then just speak to him in the same way you're doing with me right now."

"So, I tried it and I've liked it so much that I do it a couple of hours every day.

I'm careful though, If my daughter saw me talking to an empty chair, she'd either have a nervous breakdown or send me off to the funny farm."

The minister was deeply moved by the story and encouraged the old man to continue on the journey.

Then he prayed with him, anointed him with oil, and returned to the church.

Two nights later the daughter called to tell the minister that her daddy had died that afternoon.

Did he die in peace?" he asked.

Yes, when I left the house about two o'clock, he called me over to his bedside, told me how much he loved me and kissed me on the cheek.

When I got back from the store an hour later, I found him dead.

But there was something strange about his death. Apparently, just before Daddy died, he leaned over and rested his head on the chair beside the bed.

What do you make of that?" The minister wiped a tear from his eye and said, "I wish we could all go like that."

Prayer is one of the best free gifts we receive.

I asked God for water, He gave me an ocean.

I asked God for a flower, He gave me a garden.

I asked God for a friend, He gave me all of YOU...

If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.

Happy moments, praise God. Difficult moments, seek God.

Quiet moments, worship God. Painful moments, trust God.

Every moment, thank God.

Retro;
FEVER.8:42 PM

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Gonna FLY now!

Wow! its been hell of a ride this week...Past few days (Mon-Wed) was feeling sick...Heavy head, Flu and feel like puking but didnt! NOW much much better! but back aching! Feel like a slob being all day at home! Gotta do something physical tml...GeeS! Haven been really training for arm wrestling! if someone is reading, yeah i join ARM WRESTLING AGAIN!!! hahaha! Came in 2nd last year...Pray i get the 1st this year! ha! HERE I COME!!

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Sunday, May 20, 2007

Heart After You!!

(20 May 2007) Sunday's service, i experience God again...When we were worshipping and the song, "A HEART AFTER YOU" was played, i bend my knees, bow down before God and the lyrics of the songs turned into thousands of dagger and stabbed my heart!

CREATE IN ME A NEW HEART
ONE THAT FOLLOWS YOU
PLACE IN ME A DEEP DESIRE
TO KNOW YOU AS I'M KNOWN
SET MY FEET IN YOUR WAYS
TO LIVE WORTHY OF YOUR CALL
DRAW ME NEAR
TO YOU LORD
EVERY SINGLE DAY
I… JUST… WANT TO BE MORE LIKE YOU
WALK WITH YOU BESIDE ME LORD…
WON'T YOU BE MY GUIDE
PLACE YOUR HEART INSIDE MY SOUL
A HEART THAT'S EVER TRUE
ONE THAT'S AFTER YOU

ALL I DESIRE
A HEART AFTER YOU
ALL I DESIRE
A HEART AFTER YOU

Create in me a new heart to love You even more that follows You till the end regardless of what happened...place in me a deep desire to know You even more that i have never done before! set my feet in Your ways to live worthy of Your calling! Draw me near to You every single day! I want to love You even more! I wanna love You more today than i love You yesterday! Sometimes i fail You, I disappointed You from time to time but everything i do, i just want to be like You! Lord, walk with me, Be my guide! Place Your heart inside my soul! A heart that's ever true to You, A heart that's after You! Nothing i want to desire but a heart after You!!

That's my prayer to God that day! I never experience God that way for years! I weeped! Lord, im hungry for You! I don't have much talent but God, im hungry for You! Use me in a special way!! Im willing! God truly healed my heart, A heart After His own heart!

Retro;
FEVER.9:58 PM

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Confidence builder

(19 May 2007) Saturday's msg was really gd...it really impacted my heart & touches my spirit within...Talks about forgiveness...Pastor preaches bout forgiveness before & what a great reminder...In my heart, i hold unforgiveness...a person who i have not forgive all my life...The person is none other than ME myself....I will always hate myself for disappointments and failures...will always blame myself for not doing gd enough....One of the things i really lack is confidence! Everytime i wanna give a speech, and i know what i should say but when its time to say, i will forget everything im suppose to say...i cant talk well sometimes...will have loopholes...that however really bring my faith level down...i always wanted to be a cell leader...i love to serve! but always i will tell myself if i can't talk well, how am i gonna be a leader...Along the way, this past few weeks, im been really down, disappointed...I wanna help the pple in cell to help them grow...God placed them into my hands...but all i get is either they are nt doing well, M.I.A., P.O.,backslide....that somehow really gave me a reason to blame myself....Who's my enemy? the person you see every morning in the relection of the mirror...thank God! really thank God for the word in season...My leader told me this: My confidence should be from God not from men., Approval from God not from men, Whatever i do, do it for Him...Let God help me win the battle within me...That night i was broken before God and praying hard for God to give me the solution to overcome all that & God said the way to booast your confidence is really to read My Word, prayer and building a really strong relationship with ME that you never done before...As you do all this, I will begin to mold ur character and build my confidence...My Word is not just a book but the words will bring healing!! God is so crystal clear when He said that to me...And God reminded me of a story in the Bible, about the Leaper, how Jesus adore him, healed him and love him....i really cant help but to think how he was like before he met Jesus...The leaper's parents disowned him and his in the streets...hiding from the crowds, not letting anyone see how ugly, rotten he is...Even when people in the streets spotted him, everyone will never ever stay close to him....everyone calls him dirty!! dirty!! dirty!! Freak!!! freak!!! Disgusting!!! No one!! not a single person stop by for him...No one!! But theres one person, standing in front of him, looking at him, smiled at him and gave him a hug that no one gave him before...The leaper was so so so broken...He weeped...Jesus!! im not worthy!! everyone is avoiding me...i have no reason to live!! Jesus smiled and healed him!! Jesus adored him like no one had before...My past may not be as worse as the leaper's...But God reminded me how much he really loves me!!! Tears flowed out of my eyes...

Retro;
FEVER.7:32 AM

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Wednesday, May 16, 2007

ROAD TO MANHOOD...

Praise GOD!! Going for Nation service (ARMY) in less than 4 weeks!! Most of the people i know is not looking forward to it! HA! I Am!! Its gonna be a challenging time with the zZzZZZ Monster! ha! People may worry if its gonna affect their spiritual life...From the way i see it, i think its gonna be a time that makes ya even stronger!! Hey, i love the army! call me nuts but i love it...its MAN's stuff...wat's more, got a free trainer to help me keep fit...Anyway even if im tired & everything, i still will go to the House of God!!! i rather fall sleep in the house of God than sleeping at my house enjoying comfort!! Will army cost me to "BACKSLIDE"? i say "NO"! "NEVER"! i refuse to think negative but focus on the positive!! WAt exactly is backslide? its never in my dictionary!! ha! I believe that when a man have a vision, nth, no Angels in Heaven, No demons in hell & NO person in earth can stop that vision!!! take Moses for example, Look with me at Heb 11:24-27...

By faith Moses, when he was grown up, denied himself to be the son of Pharao's daughter / Rather choosing to be afflicted with the people of God than to have the pleasure of sin for a time / Esteeming the reproach of Christ greater riches than the treasure of the Egyptians. For he looked unto the reward / By faith he left Egypt, not fearing the fierceness of the king: for he endured, as seeing him that is invisible...

What Can Visions do?
1) It can help you to make difficult decisions!
v24 says: Moses refused to be called the son of Pharaoh's Daughter
Moses gave up his royal/Prince position and the pleasures of Egypt!
Why did he make that decision? cos he saw a much greater calling, great vision

2)Help you to be willing to pay the price...
v25 - Choosing to be afflicted with the people...
the price was enduring ill-treatment...
He was going to endure instead of enjoy...WHY? he had a vision!!
Just like Jesus himself...Why is He so willing to endure the pain, to pay the price? He had a vision of me & you!!

3)Live for eternal not the temporary...
Moses Considered the reproach of Jesus more valueable than the treasures of Egypt...
But the question is, why did he choose the reproach of Jesus more valueable than the treasures of Egypt? The things we have now is only temporary but GOD is eternal!! the treasures of Egypt is present, but he was looking to a future reward! He lives for Tomorrow instead of today...

*4)Visions help you to overcome your fear in your life!!
Without a shadow of a doubt, a vision can help us pay the price and it can make us to rise above all fear in our lives!! FOCUS on your vision! no matter how BIG the mountain is in front of you...How BIG is your vision?? Mountains are big, Yes! but Mountains cant grow, But we can!! our visions can be much bigger than you think!! Press on to the upward call of Christ!! FOCUS!! Wat can a mountain do to us? =)

Retro;
FEVER.8:26 PM

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Monday, May 14, 2007

MEASURE OF A MAN!!

These battered hands are all you own
This broken heart just turned to stone
Go hang your glory on the wall
There comes a time when castles fall
And all that's left is shifting in the sand

You're out of time, you're out of place
Look at your face
That's the measure of a man

This coat that fits you like a glove
These dirty streets you learned to love
So welcome back my long lost friend
You've been to hell and back again
God alone knows how you crossed that span

Back on the beat, back to the start
Trust in your heart
That's the measure of a man

It's the fire in the eyes, the lines on the hand
It's the things you understand
Permanent ties from which you once ran
That's the measure of a man

You've come full circle, now you're home
Without the gold, without the chrome
And this is where you've always been
You had to lose so you could win
And rise above your troubles while you can

Now you can love, now you can lose
Now you can choose
That's the measure of a man

It's the fire in the eyes, the lines on the hand
It's the things you understand
Permanent ties from which you once ran

You've come full circle, now you're home
Without the gold, without the chrome
And this is where you've always been
You had to lose so you could win
And rise above your troubles while you can
That's the measure of a man

Now you can love, now you can lose
Now you can choose
That's the measure of a man

Retro;
FEVER.8:10 AM

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